14 weeks

We went in for my u/s yesterday and I was ready with my super full bladder! Then the tech said okay you can go ahead and empty your bladder because we are doing a vaginal scan to just check your cervix today.Ugh. So I left my sample and headed to the u/s room. My husband showed up right after I had dropped trough and we were ready to go. I told her I was sad that we weren't going to get to check out the babies and she told me that we would take a look at them she just wouldn't be doing measurements and things. So then I went one step further and asked her if she could just take a sneak peak in between the legs. :) She asked a few times if I was sure because it was early and she couldn't give us a for sure either way. I think she was afraid that we would go out and buy a bunch of baby clothes or something. I reassured her that we just wanted her guess and wouldn't be telling anyone until after a later scan. So she peaked.... Baby A is a mover and a shaker at every u/s! I know I am prejudice but the kid has some skills! Baby B is always sleeping and can't be bothered but super cute. Oh, and my cervic measured long an closed so that was a plus!

I will continue to post my bump pictures in the above tab. I might start doing the log type posts soon as well to help me remember the pregnancy. I will be waiting until the next u/s to announce the genders because I'm not super sure about one of the guesses the tech gave so maybe we'll play a fun game at that time! For now, here are the pictures from yesterday. I can't believe how big they are getting. Aren't their profiles adorable?? (as always there is no more post after the picture, so if you don't want to look I understand)

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Blood results

This morning I drank my protein drink and then started to move onto my bagel and cream cheese. I took a big bite, looked down at my phone and saw that it was my Dr's office. I choked down the bite and answered the phone. It was Dr. S!! He had my blood results back! He said that he had them put a rush on it because of his concern. Love him.

 

My initial number was 868,000 and yesterday it was 623,000!! I am not 100% out of the clear but it has went down by over 25%. He said he will test my blood again at my next appointment in two weeks just to make sure that it keeps going down. He told me that he is 90% sure that it is Secondary and not Primary. When he told me the number the tears started to flow. I'm not going to lie I was scared. I was staying positive but I was scared. Not for my own health but for the health of our babies. 

Thank you all for your prayers, good thoughts and positive vibes!

I heard the new song from Sidewalk Prophets called "Help me find it" on my way to the doctor yesterday and again this morning on my way to work. Coincidence? I don't think so.

Help me find it Lyrics

I don't know where to go from here

It all used to seem so clear

I'm finding that I can't do this on my own

I don't know where to go from here

As long as I know You are near

I'm done fighting

I'm finally letting go

I will trust in You

You've never failed before

I will trust in you

(chorus)

If there's a road I should walk

Help me find it

If I need to be still

Give me peace for the moment

Whatever Your will

Whatever Your will

Can you help me find it

Can you help me find it

I'm giving You fear and You give faith

I giving you doubt

You give me grace

For every step I've never been alone

Even when it hurts, You'll have your way

Even in the valley I will say

With every breath

You've never let me go

I will wait for You

You've never failed before

I will wait for You

(Chorus)

I lift my empty hands (come fill me up again)

Have Your way my King (I give my all to You)

I lift my eyes again (was blind but now I see)

'Cause You are all I need

Ultrasound #4 and blood work

The ultrasound went well and didn't show any signs of a hemorrhage. Both heart rates were at 158 and the babies measured 12 weeks 1 day and are right on target. I will post the ultrasound pictures later under the tab at the top of the blog.

My blood work won't come back for around a week so I won't know more about that until then. If my platelet count doesn't go down I will be referred to a hematologist. Then I can at least know what direction this is taking me. My doctor is staying very positive that things will get better so I'm glad he isn't the doom and gloom guy. He did however follow up with this is something he hasn't seen in the the 30+ years he has been practicing. My platelet count should be around 400 thousand and mine is around 880 thousand and my white blood cells are high as well. I am continuing to pray and stay as positive as I can.

Light bleeding

I woke up to some light pink bleeding this morning, but no cramps. Since I had to go in for blood work anyway I called my doctor. They want me to come in for an u/s to be safe so I will be leaving work in the next 15 minutes to get to my appointment. I told them that I think it is getting better but they don't want to take any chances since I am high risk. I will update later.

Thrombocytosis or Reactive (secondary) Thrombocytosis

So. I got a phone call from my new OB today. Not someone from the office but the actual doctor. I tried to stay calm when he started the conversation with "Well we got the results from your blood tests back". I knew that they took two viles of blood but I had no idea what they were testing. I took a small breath and then he quickly said "No worries on your pregnancy hormone it came back good" BUT..." your blood platelet count came back highly elevated."

He then went on to say that he is hoping that it is Reactive (secondary) Thrombocytosis and it was onset from IVF. If that is the case he is hopeful that the count will go down once the OHSS is all gone. He called my RE to see if he has seen this happen with OHSS and he said that he doesn't feel like he has. Of course as my OB said he probably has never done the blood test required to find the Thrombocytosis either. Worse case scenario is it is Primary Thrombocytosis and there could be an issue with my bone marrow and cancer.Over 50% of pregnancies will also end in miscarriage due to Primary Thrombocytosis. 

 I will be going in tomorrow to get more blood drawn to see if anything has changed. My next appointment and ultrasound is this Thursday so he is hoping to have the results back by then. Is it ever easy?

I started looking this up in association with OHSS and I found a few studies at Oxford that stated there was a connection with the Reactive Thrombocytosis and OHSS among a lot of other nasty things OHSS can cause. So I am praying with every ounce of Faith that I have that my count will be lower tomorrow and I am on the mend. I am 12 weeks 2 days and I am already so in love with these babies. The thought of losing them is more than I can handle at the moment.

Please keep me and them in your thoughts and prayers. I will update as soon as they get the report back.

First OB/GYN appointment

I arrived 10 minutes early as instructed, and then we waited around an hour to be led back to the room. As I had said in my last post there was no u/s scheduled but when we walked in the exam room I saw one sitting there. To say I got excited would be an understatement. My husband reminded me that it could just be there and not for me. I kept the faith that it was!

The doctor came in and he was super nice and very detailed with information. And halfway through his talk he said that he would be doing a quick u/s just to make sure the twins were still doing great!! Whew.  He left and I disrobed. I told my husband that they would be doing a pap smear and breast exam as well. He asked if I wanted him to leave and of course I said no way. Besides he is going to end up seeing a lot before it is all over. It was so cute.. He said that he would just look down. LOL. I told him he has seen me naked so it really wasn't a problem. The doctor cleaned out a bunch of the left over Crinone junk too so that was a plus, but yuck.

As for the ultrasound. Everything looked great! I started to tear up at one point because both of the babies were wiggling around and we had never seen them move before. We didn't get to hear the heartbeats but we got to see them on the screen. I am going to do my best to relax. Plus the doctor said that we would be doing a lot of ultrasounds due to it being twins. He was going to schedule my next appointment in three weeks.. I must have made a noise and given him a look because he looked at me and asked if I would rather do two weeks. My husband answered and said that three would be fine..  The doctor looked at me again and said "let's switch it to two" and smiled. So I will go back on 1/16 and they will be doing an actual ultrasound. I guess they have a big set up in a separate room so I am pretty pumped to experience that and hear the heartbeats again. Thank you for all of your comments on my last scardy cat post. I am going to stay positive moving forward!

Without further ado, here are the twins! I am 10 weeks 5 days. One measures 10 weeks 2 days and the other is 10 weeks 1 day. The doctor said that was right on track! (There is no more post after the picture if you choose not to look.)

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