I was actually having a somewhat normal morning at work and then lunch and Facebook happened.
I have been going to an awesome hair stylist for the last few years. She is so kind and one of the sweetest people you would ever meet. I discuss my issues with infertility with her and she is genuinely concerned. Two appointments ago she told me that she is so worried that she won't be able to get pregnant after her wedding because of me and this other friend.
She got married in June... and just announced on Facebook that she is 12 weeks pregnant. WITH TWINS. I am wondering if they started trying before the wedding thinking that it would take a while.
I'm not going to lie, I cried. I am really happy for them that they are pregnant and that they don't have to struggle like we are at the moment. However, I am still sad for me. I don't want to be that way but her announcement hit me like a ton of infertile bricks. I need to get my hair highlighted but I don't know if I could make it through an appointment without crying. Why am I so pitiful? I mean her being pregnant doesn't have anything to do with me not being pregnant.
Maybe going brunette wouldn't be the end of the world....
Hugs so sorry!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you are having to go through this. You are definitely not alone. So many have actually gotten rid of Facebook for this reason alone. I have personally lost (not too close) friends because the same thing happened and I just couldn't handle it. Just about everyone us can relate to how you feel right now. Is there any one else that you could have do your hair until she delivers? If not, winter is right around the corner, so perfect time to go brunette :)
ReplyDeleteick, I hate that stuff. I have sooo many posts about "happy for them, sad for me." It's such a horrible combo of sadness and then choosing happiness for people that have what we want. It took me awhile but enough followers convinced me to get off facebook. Best thing I've done to avoid those kick in the stomach announcments (not that you wouldn't have found out w/ hairdresser) but I was getting annoucments from "friends" I hadn't seen in years. It killed me. Hang in there :)
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