Tomorrow we have some "fun" appointments with our RE.
- DH gets to do semen analysis and have 24 hour prep ($185)
- DH gets to give blood to test for communicable diseases (mine were good)($523x2)
- We will be signing all of our consent forms ($40 office visit)
- Going over how to administer injections and mix correctly
- I will be getting a sonohysterogram and doing a trial embryo transfer ($772)
NONE of these things are in our ARC package and are out of pocket. $2,043 is the amount we will need to come up with.
$2,043 not covered so far
$185 (for semen analysis retrieval day)
$2,500 medication (give or take)
???? whatever else I have missed
$16,184 at this point. And if we don't win the 50% game we will have to spend more in medication for our FET. Then if we lose again... Well, I'm going to pretend that isn't going to happen.
I am choosing to live in the world where IVF works the first time for us and we get pregnant with twins. Then I will make it to at least 36 weeks and give birth to two amazing babies. Right now that is the world I need to be in to feel safe and less scared.
I've read a lot of kicking infertility's butt blogs lately, but I have also cried when reading the loss posts come across my feed as well. I feel real pain for these women and can't imagine how they truly feel because I have never been pregnant and lost a life. So I pray...
I have been so tearful today and I haven't even started the for real medications yet! I think that I am just overwhelmed with what is coming. I feel blessed that we are able to do this it's just a lot. Our anniversary is on Sunday and we are going to just do cards and maybe a meal out. Our anniversary, birthday, Christmas, new year and valentines gift to each other this year is IVF (and hopefully a baby)
Thank you for being a huge part of my support system. Today I need some positive thoughts.